(Pictures: Top me swimming in ‘Lake Barbara’, @ my parents place ~ Bottom, a view of their lake in the fall)
Well, I got back from a few days in Indiana and it was NICE! I decided that after Racine, I needed a week off from training. Well, I tried my best…I did not ‘train’ per-say, but I did some nice easy things. My parents have a place about 1 hour south of Indianapolis, and it is BEAUTIFUL. Tucked back in the woods near Brown County, on a small lake. I took a walk with my mom one morning, I swam in their lake and I drank wine. 🙂 It was nice to take some time to reflect on the weekends race and also, clear my mind of things. We can get so wrapped up in the daily grind, whether that is work, training, or even our personal life…there is nothing better than to sometimes slow down and well, literally do nothing. A few evenings, my mom and I went down to the dock around 5:00, swam for 20-30 minutes, then enjoyed some wine while we fished. Didn’t catch much, as they just must not have been very hungry…but it was so beautiful, you would never realize that Indiana could be so gorgeous and peaceful.
I feel like I am ready for the second half ‘push’ of my season. It is so easy to be hard on ourselves. I mean, I went into Spirit of Racine truely wanting to and believing I could win it, or maybe finish top 3. Finishing 6th, I could be disappointed…but then, I put up a best time and I felt fantastic. I had my parents there supporting me, I had a few great friends there as well, and I am lucky enough to go out and do these amazing ‘things’. In reality, I feel like the luckiest person in the world. And I can honestly say, I take absolutely nothing for granted. But being able to slow down this past week, step back and take some rest time, it allowed all of this to ‘soak in’ so to speak. One thing that I believe I struggle with is ‘selling myself short’. In the midst of having a great race, or coming out ahead in the swim (where I am winning the race!) I start to think “OK, when will they start passing me…” This is something I am working on, not thinking this but rather thinking “Hold ’em off. And if/when they pass you, keep them in sight.” I am trying to tell myself I belong to be up at the front, that this is where I am fully capable of being. I think that my ability to step away from the sport, the intensity and just appreciate being a part of it all allows me to keep things in perspective.
In any case…these are my thoughts for the day. 🙂 May not be worth too much, but I think it is great to put the thoughts into words occassionally, even when they are just contemplative and rambling. Thanks for reading. And I hope you are enjoying whatever you are doing, wherever you are. Because, well, life is flippin’ short.